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Depression and anxiety is contagious. I remember when i was once on the outside and could never understand what depression consisted of or what exactly anxiety does to someone. Eventually it got me, not because i was weak, but because i was strong. I know what it’s like now to sink into this dark place where it feels like no one sees me and i see no one else. I feel alone. I feel angry. I feel sad. And all these other emotions that i can’t even put a name to it, but they are there. I know what it’s like to crave this darkness, and let your mind eat at you from every angle possible. And your mind does not ever stop racing. Depression feeds. It feeds off of me. Once it’s full, it leaves. Shortly, it returns. I know what it is like to push people you love away because that’s what makes “him”, this demon, happy. Out loud, I’m screaming “leave me alone” I’m screaming “get out of my face” I’m screaming “I want to be alone” But, inside.. I’m whispering “stay”...


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